Natalie ignored that last question completely because she had no answer to that that wouldn't just be anger.
"I don't know what I expected," she said, wiping at her eyes again. "Guess I expected more than you can give. We both did."
Because she wasn't as strong as he would've needed her to be for this to work.
"If I could tell myself this long distance thing is only for now, a phase, I could get through it." She shuddered with a random sob, her voice breaking even though she tried her hardest to keep it from doing that. Guess she wasn't anywhere near done with crying yet after all. "But I can't, because it's not. This is all it's ever gonna be, a series of special occasions. I'm not going to drop everything else and move to Seattle, and you're not gonna drop everything else and move for me. And I know that, but it keeps getting harder to let you go."
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"I don't know what I expected," she said, wiping at her eyes again. "Guess I expected more than you can give. We both did."
Because she wasn't as strong as he would've needed her to be for this to work.
"If I could tell myself this long distance thing is only for now, a phase, I could get through it." She shuddered with a random sob, her voice breaking even though she tried her hardest to keep it from doing that. Guess she wasn't anywhere near done with crying yet after all. "But I can't, because it's not. This is all it's ever gonna be, a series of special occasions. I'm not going to drop everything else and move to Seattle, and you're not gonna drop everything else and move for me. And I know that, but it keeps getting harder to let you go."