"I'd throw it all away because friends doesn't fit," he said before he could stop himself. "We don't fit as friends. We were meant for more than that and for a year, that's what we had. Pulling back from that, it doesn't work because the pieces don't fit."

His voice was getting a little louder. "It's not about what I want. It's not that at all. It's that I can freaking see how you fit into my life and it's not as some freaking friend who calls me up to chat about stuff. It's not. We're not buddies or pals. I'm not Jace or Peter or whoever else you're friends with and trying to shove me into that category is crap. It's crap because it doesn't fit."